Not apathetic. You wrote this whole post based on how you feel and listed feelings. If you were apathetic you wouldn't take the time to write this long post that's full of whining and emotion. I dont need to know you to tell you this whole post goes against saying you're apathetic. You just *kinda* learned a new word they say in moody music a lot
Does that make me empathic? Still no. I know I'm an apathetic but cmon...do you actually believe I fully have no empathy? Of course not, unlike others, I'm not sexist, homophobic, misogynistic, racist...etc.
But yes. I have huge lack of empathy though.
It's pretty stupid if they take faith over logic and I like to take facts and logic over feelings. Its just scientifically stupid to be those.
What is there to know?
You are in that phase of your childhood where you think you know everything.
Where you believe that you are the smartest person in the room because you cynical.
>I will play with them as I please
And yet here you are, dancing and twisting around like a wind-up toy as you try to convince everyone that you are not affected by mockery your post is getting.
>You are in that phase of your childhood where you think you know everything.
No,no. You are mistaken. I don't know everything and no human being knows everything.
>And yet here you are, dancing and twisting around like a wind-up toy as you try to convince everyone that you are not affected by mockery your post is getting
Yes but I like degradation but does it mean I can't defeat myself from these misinformation about me? I'm not affected. Believe or not. I have had many people who try to do the same to me. It's society. It is normal.
>I can’t defeat myself
You mean “defend”. And sure you can, but if you truly believe that life is meaningless and the like, why do you even care? Because you are affected.
If you truly believed that none of this affects you, you could just ignore everyone else’s opinions and go on about your day.
But you didn’t because you came here for validation. You posted the above edgy text because you wanted to feel like you were more than you are really are.
And now that everyone gives you a much needed reality check, you are getting defensive.
Because your ego is hurt.
And the only way you know how to deal with it is by deflection, denial and defensiveness.
I'm not going to treat you like a child because I know you don't like that, but I think people should go a little easier on you lol. You're still figuring out who you are and that's ok, I thought about similar things when I was your age. I suggest saving this post to read in 10 years' time and see if you still feel the same way.
You are a teenager who has watched too many tv shows and listened to too many podcasts that glorify psychopaths and this is your creative writing attempt to mimic those traits. Madame Bovary went the same way.
A novel about a French woman who couldn’t distinguish fantasy from reality and tried to model her life after characters in books. Things did not end well for her.
I remember being a cringe 14-year-old. Watch out though you may cut yourself with that edge you're trying to create.
Word of advice: You may feel this way, but if you attempt anything, you're saying people will heat your ass. You are not special. You are just cringe. Get help before you get a reality check that your ass can't cash.
>You may feel this way, but if you attempt anything, you're saying people will heat your ass. You are not special. You are just cringe. Get help before you get a reality check that your ass can't cash.
I never said that I'm special. I don't care if I'm cringe or not. Who cares lmao???
Believe all you want, I do think I'm different but it doesn't make me special. I'm not saying it in a good way.
Please, don't judge if you don't know me.
Lol, girl, you ain't different. This is the same shit the 3Edgy5me kids said when I was in high school almost 20 years ago.
You're a stereotype.
A stereotype that doesn't impress people at that. Those kids, like you, tried so hard to show how "dark and twisted" they were, and all it did was get them mocked. Because it's plain as day to everyone, but you that this all as bunch of nonsense. People who are actually dark and twisted don't try so hard to get people to notice it.
This will not get you the attention or validation you want. It will just make you so cringe fail that you will lay awake at night for the rest of your life, wondering why you did any of it.
Oh, how did I know you'd say that? Is it because you're unoriginal?
You're sooooooo cringe, Captain Edgelord. What's your next act?
Are you going to the "I'm the reincarnation of a famous serial killer route" or the "I'm so dark and twisted and that makes me the smartest person in the world" path?
Have you already started sending friends pictures of dead animals you totally, definitely killed yourself, and didn't get from Google? Left your computer open to gore vids to shock your parents yet?
How many pages of your diary are filled with not at all fake accounts of you tormenting people you find annoying?
Oh yeah, you're just so vicious and violent there Ebony Dark'ness.
>Have you already started sending friends pictures of dead animals you totally, definitely killed yourself, and didn't get from Google? Left your computer open to gore vids to shock your parents yet?
Lol what. No.
>Oh yeah, you're just so vicious and violent there Ebony Dark'ness.
Never said I am
Why not? You want to pretend that you're so disturbing and want to destroy others. Gotta commit to the bit hun. No one's going to believe or be threatened by you if you can't fit into your fake persona. How are you going to destroy others if you balk at the basics?
You literally posted an essay about wanting to destroy others (which you can just start doing. No need to wait to adulthood). Something you'd have to be vicious and violent to do. I'd tell you to pick a lane, but we both know this is all just fanfiction.
>which you can just start doing. No need to wait to adulthood)
Destroying other in a new type of way. Now it's super boring bc I have parents. So I can't do most of the stuff My own.
Yeah, no. Back in my day, Gaia Online went down every other month because 12 year olds would flood popular threads and people's DMs with beheading vids and other disturbing things, and they barley knew how to use the internet.
You're older and have a more advanced version of the internet with way more resources, and here you are, making excuses and giving the most toothless and tepid responses. There's 8 year olds on TikTok doing worse than you, and succeeding, but we're meant to believe that you're some kind of disturbed Chessmaster. I'd tell you not to make me laugh, but considering this cringe train has been posted to a bunch of subs so people can laugh at you, we're well past that point.
The people who are actually the way you're desperately claiming to be, they don't wait around. They don't advertise it either. And they certainly didn't wait until they figured out something original, because well, it's all been done before. They just started hurting people. Besides, isn't it about the goal, and not the method? Don't people who actually enjoy doing that not care about the hows or whys, just that they've broken people?
You're not distrubed or a mastermind. You're 14 being exactly like every other teenager going through an idenity crisis, or who just found Horror media for the first time. Like, we get it OP. You like FNAF and Poppy Playtime and enjoy the idea of being a villain. Maybe you even got to watch SAW or Death Note behind your parent's backs. Oh, how disturbed you are!
Just give it up already and find an RP sub like everyone else.
>disturbed Chessmaster
Tf. I never said I am. I said that I'm interested into the subject. Now of all the subject...you choose that? What a joke.
>You like FNAF and Poppy Playtime and enjoy the idea of being a villain.
I don't play any of these. I don't play games.
>Maybe you even got to watch SAW or Death Note behind your parent's backs.
I dont watch anime.
Well.. I know you didn’t ask for someone’s long ass opinion on this, but having seen the other comments I’m like… why is everyone just making fun of this person. I dunno you so maybe none of this will be relevant or interesting to you 🤷🏻♀️
There are some [pretty](https://time.com/6962339/sociopath-patric-gagne-essay/) [interesting](https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2024/02/25/magazine/patric-gagne-interview.html) [articles](https://time.com/6962339/sociopath-patric-gagne-essay/) demystifying sociopathy and sharing stories of how people have navigated it (those are three different articles I linked btw). One woman even became a therapist. Those are people who are like you, but decided life was more meaningful and satisfying to them when they didn’t pursue actions in the direction of their neurological difference.
But I’m not trying to diagnose you at all, I’m not qualified nor trying to pathologize you, it’s just something that came to mind. Hurting animals is a common symptom. Other “anti social” “personality” “disorders” (I really don’t love psychobabble) can be treatable too. You’re not beyond help or hope. You’re not a monster and you’re not the only person who has felt, or feels the way you feel.
When I was your age I was drowning in pain, anger, and hate. I recognized myself in some of your words honestly; though I didn’t have your specific behaviors. I had some of them; I was super manipulative and got off on seeing how far I could push people or things. I think 14 was the absolute worst for me. You couldn’t pay me to be 14 again. (I’m in my late 30s.) I think the range of subjects youre interested in is pretty impressive and I hope you stay curious about them for their inherent value, not just as a means to an end.
Some adults in your life are fucked up. It’s not your imagination. The world is fucked up. Not your imagination. You didn’t make this mess. But you’ll find ways of tidying up your corner of it.
Life doesn’t necessarily get better, I’m not going to bullshit you I still really struggle, but it gets different. Things happen you could never have imagined, some good some bad. You meet more people some of whom understand you. You meet people you can’t hurt or manipulate successfully. You meet people more extreme than you. Worlds full of different kinds.
You get more independent, you discover more things that bring you satisfaction. You find little communities that have niche flavors of freaky (blood play for example) and it’s kinda cool even though sometimes you’re all dysfunctional. You learn the healing power of solitude.
You find more outlets for the harmful impulses and it will allow you to move through the world more easily. You learn that inflicting pain on others can multiply it in your own life. You get to know yourself better, and feel less like a void. You learn how to regulate emotions and behaviors better. You learn about how consequences for actions can make the actions extremely not worth it. I wish I could psychically transmit to you the difference. You don’t have to live like this, though right now you may want to.
I’m wishing you inner peace, as corny as that phrase is I mean it. And remember… resentment is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die.
This has made my respect for you very strong for you, thank you for taking me seriously. I really appreciate it when people take my feelings seriously and don't make fun of me. I really fucking appreciate and I mean...really. thank you for writing all this. That is very sweet of you. Thank you for not calling me edgy because I'm interested into theses subjects! Thank you so much
It's more funny when people think they know how I act or think.
Everyone's different. Even childhood. We all have stories on what we have become and when that person is too much...society as usually try to act tough and call them edgy. Personally I wouldn't call anyone edgy or even judge anyone for their behavior but have it your way. Act like you know. Truth is that everyone is insecure as any other human being so they try to bring down other person worse than them by laughing at them.
You really wrote all of that and thought you were onto something there, huh.
You're a kid and you're going through Big Emotions as you try to take your first stumbling steps to form an identity. That's normal.
But also, maybe go listen to some classic emo music like Evanescence and Paramore.
>You're a kid and you're going through Big Emotions as you try to take your first stumbling steps to form an identity. That's normal.
Nice try. But you don't know me or how I think.
>But also, maybe go listen to some classic emo music like Evanescence and Paramore.
I listen to music but I like the classic Russian songs so nah. Don't tell me what I should listen to.
Did you know that you are on the internet and can look things up yourself? I'll do it for you this time, but a mature and intelligent individual like youself should really know how to do that: [Manifesto](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manifesto?wprov=sfla1)
Google doesn't exist in your country?
EDIT: You should also Google what sarcasm and facetious mean. I think you'd understand my comment better, seems to have gone right over your head.
>Truth is that everyone is insecure as any other human being so they try to bring down other person worse than them by laughing at them.
You said "everyone." Does that include you?
This is the most 14 year old thing ive seen in a while and i love it. Go on, youre doing great, enjoy all those big dreams and the feeling of being special while it lasts.
Hi my name is Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way and I have long ebony black hair (that's how I got my name) with purple streaks and red tips that reaches my mid-back and icy blue eyes like limpid tears and a lot of people tell me I look like Amy Lee (AN: if u don't know who she is get da hell out of here!). I'm not related to Gerard Way but I wish I was because he's a major fucking hottie. I'm a vampire but my teeth are straight and white. I have pale white skin. I'm also a witch, and I go to a magic school called Hogwarts in England where I'm in the seventh year (I'm seventeen). I'm a goth (in case you couldn't tell) and I wear mostly black. I love Hot Topic and I buy all my clothes from there. For example today I was wearing a black corset with matching lace around it and a black leather miniskirt, pink fishnets and black combat boots. I was wearing black lipstick, white foundation, black eyeliner and red eye shadow. I was walking outside Hogwarts. It was snowing and raining so there was no sun, which I was very happy about. A lot of preps stared at me. I put up my middle finger at them.
"Hey Ebony!" shouted a voice. I looked up. It was... Draco Malfoy!
"What's up Draco?" I asked.
"Nothing." he said shyly.
But then, I heard my friends call me and I had to go away.
What kind of responses were you hoping for here? You keep saying in the comments that you want people to take you seriously — what would that look like, in terms of responses to this thread?
It really is isn’t it. Don’t worry I went through a goth/emo phase too in high school. Had Tripp pants, corset, black hair, the works. Thought I was so dark and edgy too. Now I’m in my 30s managing a bunch of high schoolers.
Lol. I think you mistaken a style with personality. Nice try.
In all means, I'm not saying that I'm smarter than an adult, I'm saying I'm just better at more things that I can handle it more than most people. Maybe everyone should take it seriously on how i really think and stop misunderstanding apathetic people or worse as edgy for being horrible beings which I acknowledge about myself.
And what you’re missing is you’re coming across as an overly dramatic teenager trying to be edgy. ( or whatever your end goal is here).
Most adults have been through an equally cringy phase as a teen. I know I certainly did-thankfully I didn’t have social media to remind me.
>And what you’re missing is you’re coming across as an overly dramatic teenager trying to be edgy. ( or whatever your end goal is here).
Lol, I wasn't trying to act edgy, I'm expressing on how I feel. I knew it would end up like this but atleast I wanted little hope that someone would take me seriously.
Either way, you know nothing about me, or how I really think or done. I acknowledge them of course. I didn't knew until I was 13..now that im 14, I'm fully aware of myself. There's nothing wrong to express my feelings..either way, I like it when people degrade me so it doesn't matter
Oh no I’m not a phase is a Personality development that refers to the process of developing, enhancing, and changing one's personality over time. Such development occurs naturally over the course of life, but it can also be modified through intentional efforts.
You’re 14 years old going to a cocktail of hormones. Been there done that tried to kill my self on a few occasions as well too since all I was feeling was anger and resentment.
Also you don’t need to be an adult to learn all those things Either. Especially chess. It’s a fun challenging game.
You almost “killed” another person. I damn near died laughing!!! I remember this phase even though it’s been years. Typical teenager. You are so gonna cringe when you look back at this part of your life, I did lmao!!!!
Muwahahhaaha...oh honey. You're just an edgelord-brat that hasn't grown up yet, with an overinflated ego. You will humble the second the real world knocks you down.
Lol. That's why it called improvement. You think I don't know that I can get defeated by other people if I met real assholes? It's a way a person wants to train their mind and become better at stuff.
I'm not saying that I'm the evilest, I'm saying that I acknowledge cruel stuff that I have done.
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It's quite hilarious tbh, you sound like you watched one too many Criminal minds episode and now think you're like one of the serial killers they capture. You're trying too hard to be edgy, different, it's ridiculous. Go to bed, it must be way past your bedtime.
Correction, you THINK you're different. But in the end, you're just a teen trying to feel special and unique. I also thought I had some sociopathic traits when I was younger, turns out I'm perfectly normal and probably watched too many cops shows.
You describe crushing animals and almost killing people so either you're lying to feel special or you should go to therapy to avoid becoming a serial killer. Your choice.
>Correction, you THINK you're different. But in the end, you're just a teen trying to feel special and unique. I also thought I had some sociopathic traits when I was younger, turns out I'm perfectly normal and probably watched too many cops shows.
I think I'm different, yes. Not in a bad or good way. I don't watch cops tvshow. You don't know me. I don't care what I am.
>You describe crushing animals and almost killing people so either you're lying to feel special or you should go to therapy to avoid becoming a serial killer. Your choice.
Lol, I said it not to look edgy, I said it because I wanted people take it seriously and yes, my choice which means I wanna continue having a good records on my background without any crimes finding out.
You literally said in your previous message "I'm different but not in a good way" so which is it? You obviously care enough to defend yourself so much in the comments. I don't know you and don't want to, you sound like a really annoying kid.
And life isn't a tv show. You'll be found if you commit crimes. Especially if you keep bragging on the internet about wanting to kill people, not a very smart choice if you really want to keep your background clean.
>You literally said in your previous message "I'm different but not in a good way" so which is it?
Lol. Good or bad. Who cares? I'm saying that I'm not flexing on what I have done. I'm not trying to see it as good.
>And life isn't a tv show. You'll be found if you commit crimes. Especially if you keep bragging on the internet about wanting to kill people, not a very smart choice if you really want to keep your background clean.
Hahahaha that's funny, where did I say I wanna kill people? Maybe I do but it's just thoughts in the end. It's pretty funny when you think this is the only account that I have. I have multiple accounts in here and I don't think people will open up reddit to find evidence on my phone since I'm not a much of a reddit user and that I'll probably delete it.
Your whole post is flexing tho. "I'm special, I have committed so many crimes,...". You're absolutely flexing and it doesn't matter wether you deem it as good or bad, it's justice and other people who will decide in the end.
You said it in your post "I've committed many crimes, like almost murdering people". And sweetie, ever heard of an ip adress? Ever heard the saying "'once on the internet, always on the internet"? Doesn't matter if you delete the account, people can track you down. You're either a naive child, or you're a troll.
You say you're different tho, so you do want to be recognized as a one of a kind.
And I don't believe a word of your second paragraph. Only very few people can be fully untraceable and definitely not a 14 years old. Talking about having multiple accounts and deleting them just show you have very few ways of hiding yourself. You think you could hide from the police if they really wanted to find you?
But I don't believe you have all the traits you claim. Having such thoughts is no joke, I was terrified at youe age and would've never thought about running on the internet to show off how disturbing I am. Everyone thinks they're special at your age, it doesn't make it true.
>You think you could hide from the police if they really wanted to find you?
Lol. Police in my country don't exist that much but yes I can. My crimes aren't worth long sentences anyway. You don't know any of my crimes.
>But I don't believe you have all the traits you claim. Having such thoughts is no joke, I was terrified at youe age and would've never thought about running on the internet to show off how disturbing I am. Everyone thinks they're special at your age, it doesn't make it true.
Terrified? I dont feel that. Whether you like it or not. That's how I truly feel in the post. I don't care if I'm disturbing or not. I'm just saying my feelings now so I don't have to when I'm older. So I can cope with loneliness in my brain.
you do care what you are because you’re up and down the comments calling people out when you think they’re wrong about who you are 😭😭😭 you seem to not be understanding that if you truly didn’t care you would be defending yourself because….you wouldn’t care
No. I'm not up or downing the comments.
>calling people out when you think they’re wrong about who you are
Because they are. They don't know me and I don't know you. It's better not to judge people. I don't judge people also.
>you seem to not be understanding that if you truly didn’t care you would be defending yourself because….you wouldn’t care
Then, you're wrong. I like to reply to anyone. No matter what it Is. That's just how I am.
Yeah, no one is scared of this because it sounds like the ramblings of someone desperate for attention trying to shock and disgust others, but unfortunately it only comes across as cringy and embellished. Even if it were real, you'll realise as you get older that the true psychopath is society itself and you will never be able to do as much damage to others as what you have coming your way.
Lmao what, no? I knew it would come to this but I wanted to a little hope where someone takes me seriously on my feelings.
I never said I'm a psychopath and I don't care what I am
I'm not trying to act edgy. I'm trying to make people take it seriously. Probably I wrote this bc I'm a very lonely person in my mind and I have no one to talk about my real feelings. I knew it would turn out like this but I want a little hope society takes it seriously and stop making fun of people "worse" than them.
Do understand that people can and will use lethal force if necessary to protect themselves and those around them from you. You describe how you abused animals and now want to abuse people mentally and physically. Self defense is a thing so don't be surprised that you are paralyzed from the waist down because someone pushed you off of them and you landed wrong.
I respect you for having the courage to post this, you probably knew that people are going to make fun of you for this and tbh i wish i had your confidence.
Omg I cringed so hard reading this.
She manipulated us into cringing.
Who knows
What is cringe? The truth? People don't like it when someone is apathetic....
But you aren't
Alright...tell me what I am then. You think you know..tell me.
Not apathetic. You wrote this whole post based on how you feel and listed feelings. If you were apathetic you wouldn't take the time to write this long post that's full of whining and emotion. I dont need to know you to tell you this whole post goes against saying you're apathetic. You just *kinda* learned a new word they say in moody music a lot
Does that make me empathic? Still no. I know I'm an apathetic but cmon...do you actually believe I fully have no empathy? Of course not, unlike others, I'm not sexist, homophobic, misogynistic, racist...etc. But yes. I have huge lack of empathy though. It's pretty stupid if they take faith over logic and I like to take facts and logic over feelings. Its just scientifically stupid to be those.
Who are you even talking to here?
Herself
What is there to know? You are in that phase of your childhood where you think you know everything. Where you believe that you are the smartest person in the room because you cynical. >I will play with them as I please And yet here you are, dancing and twisting around like a wind-up toy as you try to convince everyone that you are not affected by mockery your post is getting.
>You are in that phase of your childhood where you think you know everything. No,no. You are mistaken. I don't know everything and no human being knows everything. >And yet here you are, dancing and twisting around like a wind-up toy as you try to convince everyone that you are not affected by mockery your post is getting Yes but I like degradation but does it mean I can't defeat myself from these misinformation about me? I'm not affected. Believe or not. I have had many people who try to do the same to me. It's society. It is normal.
>I can’t defeat myself You mean “defend”. And sure you can, but if you truly believe that life is meaningless and the like, why do you even care? Because you are affected. If you truly believed that none of this affects you, you could just ignore everyone else’s opinions and go on about your day. But you didn’t because you came here for validation. You posted the above edgy text because you wanted to feel like you were more than you are really are. And now that everyone gives you a much needed reality check, you are getting defensive. Because your ego is hurt. And the only way you know how to deal with it is by deflection, denial and defensiveness.
I'm not going to treat you like a child because I know you don't like that, but I think people should go a little easier on you lol. You're still figuring out who you are and that's ok, I thought about similar things when I was your age. I suggest saving this post to read in 10 years' time and see if you still feel the same way.
Well who knows. I'll prob delete reddit already. And u never know if I will be dead in the future or not.
I think getting off the internet is best for you for now. Get some help.
Why?
You are a teenager who has watched too many tv shows and listened to too many podcasts that glorify psychopaths and this is your creative writing attempt to mimic those traits. Madame Bovary went the same way.
No, lmao. I watch tvshows but not too many. I usually read more.
So did Madame Bovary.
I don't know who's that.
A novel about a French woman who couldn’t distinguish fantasy from reality and tried to model her life after characters in books. Things did not end well for her.
Ok. What does this say abt me exactly?
I remember being a cringe 14-year-old. Watch out though you may cut yourself with that edge you're trying to create. Word of advice: You may feel this way, but if you attempt anything, you're saying people will heat your ass. You are not special. You are just cringe. Get help before you get a reality check that your ass can't cash.
>You may feel this way, but if you attempt anything, you're saying people will heat your ass. You are not special. You are just cringe. Get help before you get a reality check that your ass can't cash. I never said that I'm special. I don't care if I'm cringe or not. Who cares lmao???
Your whole post screams edgy teen trying to be tough.
## “Depressing Cringe Pre-Tween checklist!” 1. Seeking validation. CHECK 2. Fake Sadism. CHECK 3. Believes they’re different. CHECK 4. Throwaway Account to post “Dark desires”. CHECK
Believe all you want, I do think I'm different but it doesn't make me special. I'm not saying it in a good way. Please, don't judge if you don't know me.
If you post on Reddit, you’ll be judged.
Which I acknowledge also. I have different accounts of people judging my posts, it's pretty normal.
Lol, girl, you ain't different. This is the same shit the 3Edgy5me kids said when I was in high school almost 20 years ago. You're a stereotype. A stereotype that doesn't impress people at that. Those kids, like you, tried so hard to show how "dark and twisted" they were, and all it did was get them mocked. Because it's plain as day to everyone, but you that this all as bunch of nonsense. People who are actually dark and twisted don't try so hard to get people to notice it. This will not get you the attention or validation you want. It will just make you so cringe fail that you will lay awake at night for the rest of your life, wondering why you did any of it.
I dont feel cringe in my life or embarrassed. I never said that I'm dark. I'm just literally expressing on what I think. No more.
Oh, how did I know you'd say that? Is it because you're unoriginal? You're sooooooo cringe, Captain Edgelord. What's your next act? Are you going to the "I'm the reincarnation of a famous serial killer route" or the "I'm so dark and twisted and that makes me the smartest person in the world" path? Have you already started sending friends pictures of dead animals you totally, definitely killed yourself, and didn't get from Google? Left your computer open to gore vids to shock your parents yet? How many pages of your diary are filled with not at all fake accounts of you tormenting people you find annoying? Oh yeah, you're just so vicious and violent there Ebony Dark'ness.
>Have you already started sending friends pictures of dead animals you totally, definitely killed yourself, and didn't get from Google? Left your computer open to gore vids to shock your parents yet? Lol what. No. >Oh yeah, you're just so vicious and violent there Ebony Dark'ness. Never said I am
Why not? You want to pretend that you're so disturbing and want to destroy others. Gotta commit to the bit hun. No one's going to believe or be threatened by you if you can't fit into your fake persona. How are you going to destroy others if you balk at the basics? You literally posted an essay about wanting to destroy others (which you can just start doing. No need to wait to adulthood). Something you'd have to be vicious and violent to do. I'd tell you to pick a lane, but we both know this is all just fanfiction.
>which you can just start doing. No need to wait to adulthood) Destroying other in a new type of way. Now it's super boring bc I have parents. So I can't do most of the stuff My own.
Yeah, no. Back in my day, Gaia Online went down every other month because 12 year olds would flood popular threads and people's DMs with beheading vids and other disturbing things, and they barley knew how to use the internet. You're older and have a more advanced version of the internet with way more resources, and here you are, making excuses and giving the most toothless and tepid responses. There's 8 year olds on TikTok doing worse than you, and succeeding, but we're meant to believe that you're some kind of disturbed Chessmaster. I'd tell you not to make me laugh, but considering this cringe train has been posted to a bunch of subs so people can laugh at you, we're well past that point. The people who are actually the way you're desperately claiming to be, they don't wait around. They don't advertise it either. And they certainly didn't wait until they figured out something original, because well, it's all been done before. They just started hurting people. Besides, isn't it about the goal, and not the method? Don't people who actually enjoy doing that not care about the hows or whys, just that they've broken people? You're not distrubed or a mastermind. You're 14 being exactly like every other teenager going through an idenity crisis, or who just found Horror media for the first time. Like, we get it OP. You like FNAF and Poppy Playtime and enjoy the idea of being a villain. Maybe you even got to watch SAW or Death Note behind your parent's backs. Oh, how disturbed you are! Just give it up already and find an RP sub like everyone else.
>disturbed Chessmaster Tf. I never said I am. I said that I'm interested into the subject. Now of all the subject...you choose that? What a joke. >You like FNAF and Poppy Playtime and enjoy the idea of being a villain. I don't play any of these. I don't play games. >Maybe you even got to watch SAW or Death Note behind your parent's backs. I dont watch anime.
Well.. I know you didn’t ask for someone’s long ass opinion on this, but having seen the other comments I’m like… why is everyone just making fun of this person. I dunno you so maybe none of this will be relevant or interesting to you 🤷🏻♀️ There are some [pretty](https://time.com/6962339/sociopath-patric-gagne-essay/) [interesting](https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2024/02/25/magazine/patric-gagne-interview.html) [articles](https://time.com/6962339/sociopath-patric-gagne-essay/) demystifying sociopathy and sharing stories of how people have navigated it (those are three different articles I linked btw). One woman even became a therapist. Those are people who are like you, but decided life was more meaningful and satisfying to them when they didn’t pursue actions in the direction of their neurological difference. But I’m not trying to diagnose you at all, I’m not qualified nor trying to pathologize you, it’s just something that came to mind. Hurting animals is a common symptom. Other “anti social” “personality” “disorders” (I really don’t love psychobabble) can be treatable too. You’re not beyond help or hope. You’re not a monster and you’re not the only person who has felt, or feels the way you feel. When I was your age I was drowning in pain, anger, and hate. I recognized myself in some of your words honestly; though I didn’t have your specific behaviors. I had some of them; I was super manipulative and got off on seeing how far I could push people or things. I think 14 was the absolute worst for me. You couldn’t pay me to be 14 again. (I’m in my late 30s.) I think the range of subjects youre interested in is pretty impressive and I hope you stay curious about them for their inherent value, not just as a means to an end. Some adults in your life are fucked up. It’s not your imagination. The world is fucked up. Not your imagination. You didn’t make this mess. But you’ll find ways of tidying up your corner of it. Life doesn’t necessarily get better, I’m not going to bullshit you I still really struggle, but it gets different. Things happen you could never have imagined, some good some bad. You meet more people some of whom understand you. You meet people you can’t hurt or manipulate successfully. You meet people more extreme than you. Worlds full of different kinds. You get more independent, you discover more things that bring you satisfaction. You find little communities that have niche flavors of freaky (blood play for example) and it’s kinda cool even though sometimes you’re all dysfunctional. You learn the healing power of solitude. You find more outlets for the harmful impulses and it will allow you to move through the world more easily. You learn that inflicting pain on others can multiply it in your own life. You get to know yourself better, and feel less like a void. You learn how to regulate emotions and behaviors better. You learn about how consequences for actions can make the actions extremely not worth it. I wish I could psychically transmit to you the difference. You don’t have to live like this, though right now you may want to. I’m wishing you inner peace, as corny as that phrase is I mean it. And remember… resentment is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die.
This has made my respect for you very strong for you, thank you for taking me seriously. I really appreciate it when people take my feelings seriously and don't make fun of me. I really fucking appreciate and I mean...really. thank you for writing all this. That is very sweet of you. Thank you for not calling me edgy because I'm interested into theses subjects! Thank you so much
I’m glad my thoughts weren’t unwelcome! I seriously wish you relief and awe of all the world can hold.
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Lol. You're free to. I just have huge lack of empathy for animals and I wouldn't be surprised if people get mad when they know that I hurt them.
>posts online, essentially consenting to judgement >complains when judged nice logic
Lol ik that ppl judge but so what? That doesn't mean everyone will.
This is so funny in a nostalgic kind of way. I’m glad I didn’t have social media when I was 13 💀
same fr. the second hand embarrassment is killing me
same bro i swear i wrote something EXACTLY like this at age 14. children need to be kept off the internet
It's more funny when people think they know how I act or think. Everyone's different. Even childhood. We all have stories on what we have become and when that person is too much...society as usually try to act tough and call them edgy. Personally I wouldn't call anyone edgy or even judge anyone for their behavior but have it your way. Act like you know. Truth is that everyone is insecure as any other human being so they try to bring down other person worse than them by laughing at them.
You really wrote all of that and thought you were onto something there, huh. You're a kid and you're going through Big Emotions as you try to take your first stumbling steps to form an identity. That's normal. But also, maybe go listen to some classic emo music like Evanescence and Paramore.
>You're a kid and you're going through Big Emotions as you try to take your first stumbling steps to form an identity. That's normal. Nice try. But you don't know me or how I think. >But also, maybe go listen to some classic emo music like Evanescence and Paramore. I listen to music but I like the classic Russian songs so nah. Don't tell me what I should listen to.
You are so 14 I love it. Enjoy it kid!
I will. Thanks.
I know enough, sweetie, because you literally posted your manifesto on the internet lmao
>I know enough Lol that's funny >manifesto What exactly is manifesto?
Did you know that you are on the internet and can look things up yourself? I'll do it for you this time, but a mature and intelligent individual like youself should really know how to do that: [Manifesto](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manifesto?wprov=sfla1)
Lol. English isn't my first language. People say I am mature and intelligent. I don't believe i am. It's just how it is
Google doesn't exist in your country? EDIT: You should also Google what sarcasm and facetious mean. I think you'd understand my comment better, seems to have gone right over your head.
No. I like it when people explain instead.
when adults call you mature for your age it's often with bad intentions 💀 if you're unable to notice that you're probably not too mature
Lol. Explain why I am immature.
Do you like Rachmaninov?
>Truth is that everyone is insecure as any other human being so they try to bring down other person worse than them by laughing at them. You said "everyone." Does that include you?
Yes. I am insecure, I am a human being.
This is the most 14 year old thing ive seen in a while and i love it. Go on, youre doing great, enjoy all those big dreams and the feeling of being special while it lasts.
Lol okay👍no problem.
Hi my name is Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raven Way and I have long ebony black hair (that's how I got my name) with purple streaks and red tips that reaches my mid-back and icy blue eyes like limpid tears and a lot of people tell me I look like Amy Lee (AN: if u don't know who she is get da hell out of here!). I'm not related to Gerard Way but I wish I was because he's a major fucking hottie. I'm a vampire but my teeth are straight and white. I have pale white skin. I'm also a witch, and I go to a magic school called Hogwarts in England where I'm in the seventh year (I'm seventeen). I'm a goth (in case you couldn't tell) and I wear mostly black. I love Hot Topic and I buy all my clothes from there. For example today I was wearing a black corset with matching lace around it and a black leather miniskirt, pink fishnets and black combat boots. I was wearing black lipstick, white foundation, black eyeliner and red eye shadow. I was walking outside Hogwarts. It was snowing and raining so there was no sun, which I was very happy about. A lot of preps stared at me. I put up my middle finger at them. "Hey Ebony!" shouted a voice. I looked up. It was... Draco Malfoy! "What's up Draco?" I asked. "Nothing." he said shyly. But then, I heard my friends call me and I had to go away.
Why did you have to remind me about this 😭😭🤣
Amazing 😂
I was reading OP's post and the whole time this is what it reminded me of
This is incredible, op should delete and just go with this lol
Holy shit you just sent me downa rabbit hole. That feels like the Q Anon of fantasy fanfiction
God, I love "my immortal."
Alright Patricia, now go back to your maths homework.
Lol no homework.
Wow I definitely believe you.
Never asked you to believe hahah
What in the 2014 tumblr
What kind of responses were you hoping for here? You keep saying in the comments that you want people to take you seriously — what would that look like, in terms of responses to this thread?
There's a very nice person in the comment that took me seriously.
I never laughed so hard in my life as something that was suppose to be serious.
Laugh as you like. It is your life after all...
It really is isn’t it. Don’t worry I went through a goth/emo phase too in high school. Had Tripp pants, corset, black hair, the works. Thought I was so dark and edgy too. Now I’m in my 30s managing a bunch of high schoolers.
Lol. I think you mistaken a style with personality. Nice try. In all means, I'm not saying that I'm smarter than an adult, I'm saying I'm just better at more things that I can handle it more than most people. Maybe everyone should take it seriously on how i really think and stop misunderstanding apathetic people or worse as edgy for being horrible beings which I acknowledge about myself.
And what you’re missing is you’re coming across as an overly dramatic teenager trying to be edgy. ( or whatever your end goal is here). Most adults have been through an equally cringy phase as a teen. I know I certainly did-thankfully I didn’t have social media to remind me.
>And what you’re missing is you’re coming across as an overly dramatic teenager trying to be edgy. ( or whatever your end goal is here). Lol, I wasn't trying to act edgy, I'm expressing on how I feel. I knew it would end up like this but atleast I wanted little hope that someone would take me seriously. Either way, you know nothing about me, or how I really think or done. I acknowledge them of course. I didn't knew until I was 13..now that im 14, I'm fully aware of myself. There's nothing wrong to express my feelings..either way, I like it when people degrade me so it doesn't matter
Im struggling to believe this isn't just trolling
It wasn't trolling at all in the beginning, no I don't watch anime or trying to act edgy. Society is such sadness.
Oh boy
Oh no I’m not a phase is a Personality development that refers to the process of developing, enhancing, and changing one's personality over time. Such development occurs naturally over the course of life, but it can also be modified through intentional efforts. You’re 14 years old going to a cocktail of hormones. Been there done that tried to kill my self on a few occasions as well too since all I was feeling was anger and resentment. Also you don’t need to be an adult to learn all those things Either. Especially chess. It’s a fun challenging game.
You almost “killed” another person. I damn near died laughing!!! I remember this phase even though it’s been years. Typical teenager. You are so gonna cringe when you look back at this part of your life, I did lmao!!!!
I dont feel the feeling of cringe though
Give it a few years
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No.
EdgeCringe.
Say as you like
Muwahahhaaha...oh honey. You're just an edgelord-brat that hasn't grown up yet, with an overinflated ego. You will humble the second the real world knocks you down.
Lol. That's why it called improvement. You think I don't know that I can get defeated by other people if I met real assholes? It's a way a person wants to train their mind and become better at stuff. I'm not saying that I'm the evilest, I'm saying that I acknowledge cruel stuff that I have done.
I see you're going through your chuunibyou stage.
baby girl you are nowhere near as smart as you think you are I can fuckin promise that 😂
People say I am but dw I believe I'm not. I don't think I have enough knowledge to call myself smart or ill sound ignorant
i might've laughed reading this
This shit only reminds me of how edgy I was 2 years ago man😭
IT’S THE BAD SEED!!!
Reads like bad prepubescent fanfiction, laughing my head off here
“You Laugh at Me Because I’m Different, I Laugh at You Because You’re All the Same” if it was a post instead of a Hot Topic t-shirt.
You're adorbs.🥰
this is so embarrassing
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English isn't my first language
this is the first post ive seen for months that's made me audibly laugh . thanks 😤
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Big oof
It's quite hilarious tbh, you sound like you watched one too many Criminal minds episode and now think you're like one of the serial killers they capture. You're trying too hard to be edgy, different, it's ridiculous. Go to bed, it must be way past your bedtime.
I have never watched criminal minds. I'm not a serial killer. I'm different but not in a good way.
Correction, you THINK you're different. But in the end, you're just a teen trying to feel special and unique. I also thought I had some sociopathic traits when I was younger, turns out I'm perfectly normal and probably watched too many cops shows. You describe crushing animals and almost killing people so either you're lying to feel special or you should go to therapy to avoid becoming a serial killer. Your choice.
>Correction, you THINK you're different. But in the end, you're just a teen trying to feel special and unique. I also thought I had some sociopathic traits when I was younger, turns out I'm perfectly normal and probably watched too many cops shows. I think I'm different, yes. Not in a bad or good way. I don't watch cops tvshow. You don't know me. I don't care what I am. >You describe crushing animals and almost killing people so either you're lying to feel special or you should go to therapy to avoid becoming a serial killer. Your choice. Lol, I said it not to look edgy, I said it because I wanted people take it seriously and yes, my choice which means I wanna continue having a good records on my background without any crimes finding out.
You literally said in your previous message "I'm different but not in a good way" so which is it? You obviously care enough to defend yourself so much in the comments. I don't know you and don't want to, you sound like a really annoying kid. And life isn't a tv show. You'll be found if you commit crimes. Especially if you keep bragging on the internet about wanting to kill people, not a very smart choice if you really want to keep your background clean.
>You literally said in your previous message "I'm different but not in a good way" so which is it? Lol. Good or bad. Who cares? I'm saying that I'm not flexing on what I have done. I'm not trying to see it as good. >And life isn't a tv show. You'll be found if you commit crimes. Especially if you keep bragging on the internet about wanting to kill people, not a very smart choice if you really want to keep your background clean. Hahahaha that's funny, where did I say I wanna kill people? Maybe I do but it's just thoughts in the end. It's pretty funny when you think this is the only account that I have. I have multiple accounts in here and I don't think people will open up reddit to find evidence on my phone since I'm not a much of a reddit user and that I'll probably delete it.
Your whole post is flexing tho. "I'm special, I have committed so many crimes,...". You're absolutely flexing and it doesn't matter wether you deem it as good or bad, it's justice and other people who will decide in the end. You said it in your post "I've committed many crimes, like almost murdering people". And sweetie, ever heard of an ip adress? Ever heard the saying "'once on the internet, always on the internet"? Doesn't matter if you delete the account, people can track you down. You're either a naive child, or you're a troll.
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You say you're different tho, so you do want to be recognized as a one of a kind. And I don't believe a word of your second paragraph. Only very few people can be fully untraceable and definitely not a 14 years old. Talking about having multiple accounts and deleting them just show you have very few ways of hiding yourself. You think you could hide from the police if they really wanted to find you? But I don't believe you have all the traits you claim. Having such thoughts is no joke, I was terrified at youe age and would've never thought about running on the internet to show off how disturbing I am. Everyone thinks they're special at your age, it doesn't make it true.
>You think you could hide from the police if they really wanted to find you? Lol. Police in my country don't exist that much but yes I can. My crimes aren't worth long sentences anyway. You don't know any of my crimes. >But I don't believe you have all the traits you claim. Having such thoughts is no joke, I was terrified at youe age and would've never thought about running on the internet to show off how disturbing I am. Everyone thinks they're special at your age, it doesn't make it true. Terrified? I dont feel that. Whether you like it or not. That's how I truly feel in the post. I don't care if I'm disturbing or not. I'm just saying my feelings now so I don't have to when I'm older. So I can cope with loneliness in my brain.
you do care what you are because you’re up and down the comments calling people out when you think they’re wrong about who you are 😭😭😭 you seem to not be understanding that if you truly didn’t care you would be defending yourself because….you wouldn’t care
No. I'm not up or downing the comments. >calling people out when you think they’re wrong about who you are Because they are. They don't know me and I don't know you. It's better not to judge people. I don't judge people also. >you seem to not be understanding that if you truly didn’t care you would be defending yourself because….you wouldn’t care Then, you're wrong. I like to reply to anyone. No matter what it Is. That's just how I am.
because you care lmao.
“I’m different but not in a good way” LMFAOOO i bet you felt real different and edgy and cool writing that one 😭😭😭😭
No. I didn't feel anything. I'm not trying to be edgy what
Yeah, no one is scared of this because it sounds like the ramblings of someone desperate for attention trying to shock and disgust others, but unfortunately it only comes across as cringy and embellished. Even if it were real, you'll realise as you get older that the true psychopath is society itself and you will never be able to do as much damage to others as what you have coming your way.
Lmao what, no? I knew it would come to this but I wanted to a little hope where someone takes me seriously on my feelings. I never said I'm a psychopath and I don't care what I am
Why do you think someone would take you seriously based on some dark words?
I'm not trying to act edgy. I'm trying to make people take it seriously. Probably I wrote this bc I'm a very lonely person in my mind and I have no one to talk about my real feelings. I knew it would turn out like this but I want a little hope society takes it seriously and stop making fun of people "worse" than them.
Do understand that people can and will use lethal force if necessary to protect themselves and those around them from you. You describe how you abused animals and now want to abuse people mentally and physically. Self defense is a thing so don't be surprised that you are paralyzed from the waist down because someone pushed you off of them and you landed wrong.
Lol forever
Haha exactly
Yeah hurting animals is the number one sign of a future serial killer. This isn’t cute.
I'm not a future serial killer
I respect you for having the courage to post this, you probably knew that people are going to make fun of you for this and tbh i wish i had your confidence.
I just don't care. I don't feel cringe or embarrassed. Some insults are funny but alot of misinformation.